ok..
so like i said earlier on..
didnt go to werk..
hang out wid fieza...
aftewhich i went to mit naz...
we were so cold twds each other....
i can see e hatred in his eyes....
we toked....
i realise der no way we cn make dis rship werk...
so he went bck to his plc..
der i was under his bloc..
feeling miserable...
n gosh i miss him dat much....
so i txted him again...
asking him to come dwn again just for a while...
wen he did....
i didnt sae much...
i just kissed his hands...
saying dat im sorry...
after which i just had to kiss him n smell him...
my tears were abt to roll dwn..
bt i hold onto it...
wen he wa abt to leave again...
he gave me a kiss on mu forehead...
wen dat happens..
i cundt hold my tears nimore...
it just roll dwn...
i went to hide...
i cried like hell...
gosh..
i reali miss him...
n i tried persuading him to start tinks all over again...
i realised dat i cnt b w/o him...
ape tk nyer...
althou smlm kuar aye...
ders alt of food..
and being me...
i wud eat s much s i cud..
bt i ony had little..
wen i gt home..
he's still on my mind...
cried to my slp....
tdy...
i woke up wid a gastric flu...
had running nose....
diorrhea n vomiting..
went to doc..
gt myself an mc...
went to mit fieza..
ony after pourng my hearts ou to her den i felt better...
had lunch at her plc coz her mum da prepare...
itu pn mkn skit...
so u see...
wen all dis happen..
i lost myself...
no selera....
slelt while crying....
didnt go to werk....
fall ill...
its like i lost my sense of direction in my life....
we decided to give it anthr try..
by starting evrytink all over again..
and dis tym round takin tinks slow....
we'll just see....
but at e same tym..
iintend to gain back my independence..
coz if dis happens again....
atleast i knew dat i wudnt lose myself...
bby....
i reali love u..
ure evrytink to me..
i wud lose my sanity if u were to leave....
love muhd nazmi....
